So today I shot a little video for myself - 10 minutes, without sound, recording my way outside my room and the house into the woods... :) As a little memory. Then walked in the forest listening to Moonsorrow's half an hour long Tuleen Ajettu Maa and strolled, and strolled. In 14*C. In a single thin t-shirt. I wasn't colt, I felt it getting me, but I felt alive, not cold. And I was visually consuming the wonderful nature around me.... It was very good. The track is... heavy.
Tomorrow I am leaving this country. It has been nice. I have very ambient feelings. Sometimes it has been hard with the kids and I feel it was enough. But on the other hand, which is the positive one, and way bigger, I loved the life here, I loved the place, I will miss the life and I will miss the place. Three months have gone very far (even though some 4 hour long morning shifts with the children just seemed neverendingly long), it seemed like "whoah I am going to Finland for the whole summer", but it was actually not much time. Time passes so fast, cold goes away, warmth comes, the berries start to ripe, then wheat ripes and gets reaped and it is autumn.
This place got a part in my heart, this place became a part of mine. Egy kicsikét az enyém lett. I gave a piece of myself to this place and now we are each others' in a small amount. I become attached too easily and of course I got attached very fast too as well. I am totally sentimental about leaving this wonderland. I will miss the sounds, the noises, I will miss the smells. I will miss the piece, the forest walks, this beautiful farm with cute cowy cows, I will miss Remu, I will miss joking around with my host father, I will miss my adorable host mum who is one of the most beautiful persons I have ever met, let me just now keep the reasons for myself. This place took things from me and gave me things, and I tried to give this place things and now we are being separated. I will miss the feeling of long summer nights. I will miss staring at sunlight after midnight. I will miss having a dog. I will miss that mysterious something that's in the air up here north. It is very hard to put my feelings into words, that's why this blogpost is shitty.
Anyway, new adventures DO await me (that's why now there is a hurry with these posts because I reckon I won't have anyt time), the Erasmus adventure awaits me and in Tallinn I will probably have as much fun as I never had. I'm boarding the ferry on the 24th at 11 am. and be in Tallinn at 13.40... And still don't know who picks me up, but I have maps, public transport connections, taxi numbers and everything, will be nice. I am curious about what the place I will live it will be like (FeelGood Hostel, you better be awesome:)) and I am curious about my other 3 roommates (or well, one I already know and she seems more than OK, so let's see. I hope for some speakers of the languages I will be studying or am interested it. But well, any are good, just be dark and silent in the night, ehh.. >.<)
I am already looking forward to the first ESN programs, I hope I will fit in.... Just be cool :P
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